That first place...

I realized something the other night, as I was falling asleep. 

I feel like my whole life has been winter. I have not always felt like this. But the last few months have made me feel like my whole existence, all my thoughts, dreams, hopes, fears...all have been in winter. That all I've ever known is winter. That all I'll ever be is winter. This is not true, because I've lived every season of the soul more than once. And every season of the soul is a season I enjoy. Every season of the earth is a season I enjoy because God made them and gave them to me.

But it's winter now. 

And I have to keep hoping for spring. I have to keep searching for spring. I have to believe in spring. I have to believe spring will come, and with it something else to thaw my soul.

I keep hoping for spring. Hoping so much it hurts. Hurts because the icy tendrils on my heart get nervous. Nervous because they don't want it to be spring. Spring because it's a threat to their life and they don't want to let go. Go because they must. Must because I have to be green again. Again because that's what I was in that First Place.

I need to be green again.

With utmost sincerity, 

Kaitlin R.

Irrational...

My humanities textbook said something that I ended up writing on a piece of paper and sticking to my wall.

{Just because it's irrational doesn't mean it's not real...}

How great is that?!!

I guess I like it so much because I'm an irrational human person. 

...

I love Ellen Degeneres. 

I watch her videos on Youtube and I always end up crying when she gives things away. She's just so bright and so good. 

I want to be like that. I want to be brighter and better and inspire people!

...

I also heard another quote from a video by "Kid President."

{We can cry about it, or we can dance about it.}

I love that. 

With utmost sincerity,

Kaitlin R.

And full of spaz...

"He kinda' hates your guts..."

 

...

 

"Oh no! He really does hate me! Me and my guts!"

 

 

My video log is coming soon. I'm just lazy.

{You were so close to wondering, and too far from finding.}

 

THE HOBBIT IS COMING SO SOON I CAN'T WAIT!!!

 

Seriously though, I'm so excited!

 

 

{...}

 

Guys, in all honesty, I really have nothing to say, for which I am sorry.

I'm was not blessed with quick wit, or inspiring messages...but I do feel a need to write. To get words onto paper (even if that paper is electrical.)

 

I don't remember the rules of grammar.

 

I don't remember all the ammendment's of the constitution.

 

I don't say everything I feel for fear of offending people...or sounding really uppity...or really boring.

 

I like so sing. Loud. When I'm at home alone, I belt music. I'm pretty sure my neighbors get annoyed, but they've said nothing.

 

I need to stop talking about myself.

But I've been on no grand adventures!

To quote Dr. Watson, "Nothing happens to me."

 

But I continue for the sake of existence, and because maybe someday I'll have something worthwhile to say...

 

To the right of your screen is a button. ------>

 

It says "Follow."

 

I would appreciate it if you'd click that button.

 

Love and chocolate.

 

 

With utmost sincerity,

Kaitlin R.

 

Oh, and I guess I'll add this for your entertainment...please don't judge me too harshly...yes, I made the song up, and yes my uke is out of tune... :)

 

 

Hero's get remembered...

There's nothing to say,

nothing to do,

nothing to say,

nothing to do...

 But, sit and dream of you.

I'm watching "The Sandlot." Good movie. It was filmed in Utah.

{But legends never die.}

{Follow your heart kid...}

{...and you'll never go wrong.}

Watch Olan Rogers on YouTube. You'll laugh your guts out.

I got to make jack o'lantern's at work today.

Check, check, success!
 

{I just got the best dang chicken tenders...}

Laughing just makes my heart lighter.

Makes the world a little bit brighter.

Opens your eyes.

Open's the skies.

Life's just a big bowl of jello.

And do you have a spoon???

[I'm tired, and bored...and I can't get italics off...]

Weeoooweeoooweeeoooweeooo!

There's a man I love, and his name is Richard Armitage. {heart, heart, heart!}

If you have Netflix, and time, watch

North and South.

It's beautiful, and you'll fall in love with Richard Armitage too! 

With utmost sincerity,

Kaitlin R.

 

"Is there anything I can do to help?"

Things to do:

1. Laugh every day.

2. Clean my room...then clean it again.

3. Make money so I can go to college. 

4. Actually get asked on a date instead of asking to be asked...

5. Figure out my visiting teaching situation.

6. Make money so I can go to college.

7. Remember that we can't go back because we were meant to go forward. 

8. Organize all the notebooks piled in haphazard skyscrapers around my room.

9. Make money so I can go to college.

10. "Serve God, love [others], and mend..." (Prize to the person who can tell me what that quote is from.)
 

Things to become:

1. Become a better laugher.

2. Become a better friend.

3. Become more loyal.

4. Start to learn how to learn to become a leader in my family. The one I have now and the one I will have.

5. Become a better writer.

6. Come to remember the knowledge that I am a Daughter of God. 

7. Become a better stayer-in-contacter...

8. Become a better woman.

9. Become a scholar.

10. Become to become.

Some of that was way random, but essential to my plan of focus and faith.

Cheers!
 

With utmost sincerity, 

Kaitlin R.